Grey … to black … to where i am now; where tears lick my cheeks and beer is bitter but sweeter than the floor, the candles … sweeter than every blade in my head … sweeter than everything.
I’m born to suffer and i do it well.
Look through my eyes. The raped can see the raped. If this world were set aflame, god would make me watch. Inside me, Time disobeys all laws. I’m stuck in a Perfect Moment of Pain. Time can’t heal me. My memory has always been stronger than the present … stronger than me. Life just became so much longer.
I was cold for years. This time, i need to do it longer.
I believe that love is when you give your all. And if you fail, you can never recover all of yourself ’cause some gets soaked and washed away. I built my hole but took the chance ’cause it shouldn’t be denied. It’s the greatest hope. It has to be tried even if all the devils in the world are lining up for the fight.
Life is choice. Consequence must be lived with. But i will hate every fucking moment!